It's been over a week now….I'm just now able to put into words without sobbing that my loyal companion and best friend is gone.

It was last Saturday, Feb 9th at 4:45pm when she took her last breath, I held her in my arms, her face embraced by Austin's hands, we kissed her frail little head as she passed and we could see her spirit leave her eyes…. I'm crying now uncontrollably as I type. I miss her so much.

My worst nightmare happened, when last Saturday morning she awoke and nothing was out of the ordinary….until later that afternoon when I noticed she was in severe pain, we drove her quickly to the vet clinic…..I then became face to face with that dreaded decision….and then she was gone.  If someone would have told me last Saturday morning that she would be gone by the evening, I wouldn't have believed it.

For exactly 16 years she's been my constant in every aspect of my life and I just can't believe her beautiful soul is gone. I want so bad to hug her one more time. I have a void….I miss her…I miss so many things about her…I miss her presence, I miss her bark, I miss taking her for walks, I miss giving her those silly scooby snacks and making her do a "trick" for them, most of all- I miss coming home and having her here to greet me, happy to see me, wagging her tail. 

Roxie was more than I ever imagined a dog could or would be. She was so smart, smarter than most people I know…she loved me for 16 years unconditionally. She surprised me often with her ability to sense things. She cared for me in her own little way, whether it was just sitting beside me when I was upset and putting her little paw on my arm or keeping me company late at night as I studied my way through nursing school. She brought me so much joy and happiness. She was like a rock in my life, I grew to depend on her as much as she depended on me. She was my very BEST friend, always loyal, always faithful, always there, always strong. Over the years, as she grew older, she became more of a baby to me and Austin, but that was OK, I loved caring for her. I could never repay the care and love she gave me, she gave us…  She is etched into my heart and my memory forever. 

I miss you my little "woo" dog. 

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